I don't make New Years resolutions because it's been my pattern to keep them for about a week before I completely forget about them, only to remember that I've forgotten about them at a most inopportune time which then makes me feel like a complete and utter failure for not managing to stick with them for longer and then I wallow in seasonal depression and it's a total downward spiral to daily sessions with my therapist and further examination of my inability to follow through on things that matter. In order to avoid going broke paying for therapy, and because I'm attempting to be realistic about how much I can handle while also being a full time parent to an active child, I decided to forgo the New Year's resolution spiral of psychological death this year. Hey, I have complete and total Mommy brain, so even if I did make resolutions, I'm pretty much guaranteed to forget about them within the space of 20 minutes. I could, of course, come up with a long list of all the things I would like to improve upon this year (get back in shape, stop leaving the house dressed like a homeless person, etc.) but I honestly don't have the energy to examine all of my shortcomings. Look, I'm just trying to make it through the day without having a nervous breakdown or causing irreparable bodily damage to myself or my child, so I think that's probably enough to focus on for 2014.
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